I’ll Never Find You

Lord, you have come into my life and loved me with such a perfect abundant love that is unknown to man. You have loved me consistently throughout my entire life. Amazingly enough you chose to love me simply at the thought of creating me. You already knew all the stuff I would demonstrate before your very eyes but you STILL created me and love me without holding back. You loved me so much that you refused to see me in my lowly state, so you began a works in me and invested your ways, thoughts, and desires in my heart. I have come to the realization that I will never find you. You put me on a different type of food now I can’t find it in my local markets and not even online. No, not even a small ounce of it can be found in the soil of the Earth. This perfect love you have given me has made it very hard for me to be loved by others in the natural, but I know there are others like me that if they would only let your supernatural shadow them, they too can be a source of your love as a vessel to the world who is hurting. Lord, I have realized that you have a reserved space in my heart, body, mind, soul, and spirit that ONLY you can feel, no other man, person, or material things fits in that space specifically reserved for you, so why do we continue to try, especially as Daughters of the Most High? Thank you that you never get tired of loving me and you’ve never once abandon me. Your love never runs out or needs to be replenished. Thank you that you never hurt me or have bad intensions towards me and this is why I have come to realize that in my search for a false sense of perfection and/or love, I will never find you!